Never-Ending Edits

I’m currently on draft number who-even-knows-anymore of my work in progress, Blood and Water. The cool thing is, every time I finish a draft, I feel really confident in it, like it’s the best I could ever accomplish. (To be fair, it really is my best work at that point in my life.) Then I get to see how much I’ve grown as a writer when I return to that draft a few weeks later and think “this is actually kind of garbage.” So I revise and rewrite and get a new draft I love so much.

The thing is, after submitting it to my writing groups for feedback, I’m still getting tons of suggestions for re-wording things, clarifying sentences and plot points, and rearranging paragraphs for better flow. A lot of this, I’m slowly recognizing, is due to personal preference and the writing styles of those lovely people offering the feedback, since they, too, are writers. It’s getting easier for me to disregard some suggestions, because they don’t fit my style. Also, I’m coming to terms with the fact that they’re *looking* for issues–a casual reader likely wouldn’t notice that “I struggle not to cry” fits better than “I refuse to cry,” or that I just used “I” to start the last three sentences of that section, a big repetitive no-no.

Still, some comments are really great. People are still catching plot holes and subtext that’s too subtle or foreshadowing that’s too obvious. I’m endlessly grateful to these friends who are taking the time out of their busy schedules to read my work and offer constructive feedback.

It doesn’t stop me from yelling LEAVE ME ALONE at the screen a few times once I’m several hours into the critique-review process. That’s when I take a break to post pics to Instagram or work on a blog post. 🙂

Writing Vacation

Last week was a crazy adventure. In the course of 9 days, I spent over 24 hours in a car, 3 hours on a plane, and traveled to 5 cities in 5 different states to see friends, family, and watch the St. Louis Blues bring home the Stanley Cup (#LGB!).

This came at a really opportune time, because I’ve reached my wits end with the current draft of my novel. I still believe it in, but I’m so, so tired of it. There are about two chapters waiting for complete overhauls that I have not been able to stir up the motivation to complete. I’m impatient for it to just be finished and out in the world, looking for an agent to represent it, but can’t bring myself to give those last couple chapters the attention they need to be done. I’m sure there’s some psychological phenomenon at work, a reluctance to polish the ending and admit “I’m finished”. Or maybe I just am bored with the story I’ve focused on for the past year. I’m ready to move on to one of the other sagas bouncing around my mind.

Whatever the reason, I needed a break. I’ve tried taking them before, binging TV epics with the Mr. or losing myself in a good (already published) book, but Solvi & co. always lurked in the back of my mind, mingling with a slight sense of guilt I couldn’t quite shake.

Last week, so much of my time was spent on the road or visiting with loved ones that all I could do was sleep in my free time. It was amazing and exhausting and best of all, it’s given me a truly fresh perspective as I return to my story. I’m looking forward to getting this draft polished!

Blood and Water: Playlist

I’ve got a few hundred “inspirational” songs that have gone into writing Blood and Water. I’ve narrowed them down and compiled a list of 21 songs that I think best represent most of the novel, and/or were the most influential for some scenes. The entire playlist can be found on YouTube. Enjoy!

  1. Please Don’t Say You Love Me – Gabrielle Aplin
  2. Kvervandi – Ivar Bjørnson & Einar Selvik (one of the “Viking”-esque songs I listened to on repeat for the fight scenes–Plus this one’s by Einar, I mean, come on!)
  3. Wolves – Sam Tinnesz, Silverberg
  4. Hunter – Adam French
  5. The Pines – Roses & Revolutions (this one makes me think of Solvi and Maiken)
  6. Blood and Bones – Kodaline
  7. Long Way Down – Matthew Mayfield
  8. The Hunter – Adam Jensen
  9. Dark Times – The Weeknd, Ed Sheeran
  10. Dangerous Man – Little Dume
  11. World Gone Mad – Bastille
  12. Wicked Game – Matthew Mayfield, Emma Hewitt
  13. Fire – Saint Mesa
  14. Dawn – Von Grey (Maiken/Solvi song)
  15. A Grave Mistake – Ice Nine Kills
  16. Feet Don’t Fail Me Now – Neoni
  17. World Gone Mad – The Phantoms
  18. Stone – Sawyer Fredericks
  19. Smoked Out of Heaven – Saint Claire
  20. Better Than the Pain (Acoustic) – The Woodlands
  21. Unspoken – Welshly Arms
  22. New Kings – Sleeping Wolf

As always, if you prefer a Spotify option you can check out the list here!

Blood and Water

I am in hardcore editing-mode of my first novel, working title Blood and Water. Still, the creative side of me is hard to turn off. I love exploring ideas by writing short scenes and discovering the memories each of my characters hold dear.

Soon I will begin to share some of these scenes. Hopefully, it gets readers interested in my characters and as excited about their upcoming story as I am.

Either way, it will be a good outlet for some of my creative moments that still keeps me grounded in the story I’m telling. Enjoy!